Today is one of those days where I would have much rather just stayed in bed.  I’m in a flare, but I wouldn’t say that I’m in a bad mood.  I’m just in a mood that isn’t good.  I don’t know, it’s weird.  I’m feeling a little better now, but maybe it’s because it’s almost bedtime and I can put this day behind me.  It’s been a while since I’ve felt quite like this.  I feel like all my nerves are sitting on top of my skin.  Everything is irritating me and everything hurts.  I know, I know…welcome to the world of Fibromyalgia.  It could be worse so I won’t bitch too much.

Hope everyone has had an awesome day!  Don’t forget to be brilliant!

I love quotes that not only inspire you but also make you really think about where your life is headed.  I recently read a book called Do It! Let’s Get Off Our Buts by John-Roger and Peter McWilliams and the authors used many quotes from the famous and not so famous throughout the entire book.  Here are some of my favorites:

“Writing is easy.  All you do is stare at a blank sheet of paper until drops of blood form on your forehead.”  ~Gene Fowler

“It took me 15 years to discover  I had no talent for writing, but I couldn’t give it up because by then I was too famous.”  ~Robert Benchley

“You can’t build a reputation on what you’re going to do.”  ~Henry Ford

“Fall seven times, stand up eight.”  ~Japanese Proverb

“Advice is what we ask for when we already know the answer but wish we didn’t.”  ~Erica Jong

“People are always blaming their circumstances for what they are.  I don’t believe in circumstances.  The who get on in this world are the people who get up and look for the circumstances they want, and if they can’t find them, make them.”   ~George Bernard Shaw (1893)

“The Wages of sin are death, but by the time taxes are taken out, it’s just sort of a tired feeling.”  ~Paula Poundstone

“Courage is doing what you’re afraid to do.  There can be no courage unless you’re scared.  ~Eddie Rickenbacker

What are your favorite quotes?  Don’t forget to be brilliant!

I have had the ability to really relax this week and I feel so refreshed.  I’m always saying I just want to run away and I finally did.  My little mini vacation has been awesome.  I know when I get back home I will have to deal with reality, but I feel strong enough to take care of business now.  Dreams don’t get accomplished by simply dreaming and wishing.  They take hard work and a lot of determination.  I’m ready now.  My life is changing fast and it’s time that I catch up and go with the flow.

Hope everyone has had an awesome day. Don’t forget to be brilliant! 

I’m feeling stronger these days, which is so refreshing.  The pain is still an absolute bitch, but I have a little more energy and my mind is definitely more clear.  I can handle the pain if I’m mentally in a good place so I’m calling the last couple of days good ones.

Good days are essential in dealing with Fibromyalgia, whether they are good because the pain isn’t too bad or simply because we’re just happy.  I’ve had days where I could barely move because the pain was so bad, but I was still happy so it was a good day.  How can we be happy when we’re in so much pain?  This is something that only those of who live with chronic pain understand.  If we dictated happiness on how much pain we were in then we would never be happy.  Who wants to live life like that?

 

I hope everyone is having an awesome day.  Don’t forget to be brilliant!

Where do I go from here?  I’m lost and confused.  I feel like just a shell of the person I used to be.  I had my life figured out only for it to first be thrown off track by my illness and then again by divorce.  Now I don’t know where to go.  I’m trying my hardest to keep my head up and keep on keeping on, but some days are harder than others.

We all go through this from time to time.  We feel sorry for ourselves, we feel hopeless and abandoned and we simply feel stuck in a rut.  Times of self-pity are not something we are ever proud of, but it’s these moments of weakness that in the end make us stronger.  I used to get mad at myself every time I caught myself feeling sorry for myself, but not anymore.  Now I know that I need those occasional moments of weakness to remind me of how strong I really am. 

We’re all human and we all make mistakes.  No one is better than anyone else.  We all have our weaknesses and we all have our strengths.  Live your life the best way you know how and don’t listen to anyone but yourself.  Only you can get you to the place you’ve been dreaming of because only you know how important it is to get there.

Have an awesome day and don’t forget to be brilliant! 

I end every post with “Don’t forget to be brilliant.” Or “Be brilliant”.  This started because I needed a special reminder myself that it didn’t matter what I accomplished as long as I was brilliant while accomplishing it. If every day we tell ourselves that we’re going to be brilliant then at some point we’ll have no choice but to be brilliant.  It may sound totally retarded, but just think about it for a second.  The mind is far more powerful than we think it is.  If we think we are going to fail then we are going to fail.  If we tell ourselves that we’re going to be brilliant then we are going to be brilliant.  It’s as simple as that. 

So stop thinking about your dreams and start living them.  I hope all of you have an awesome day and of course don’t forget to be brilliant.

I remember being 16 years old and thinking it was the end of the world because my mom wouldn’t buy me those new shoes I wanted or if the boy I had a crush on liked someone else.   Every time I threw a fit my mom would tell me that life wasn’t easy and that it was only going to get harder.  Now I’m 31 years old with a chronic illness, no insurance, no money and going through a divorce.  I could cry scream and throw a fit, but because of how my mom raised me I know that things could be worse and if I don’t watch myself they will get worse.

Times are hard, but there are so many people who are much worse off than me so I’m going to do my best to suck it up and drive on.  I have a chronic illness, but I don’t have a terminal illness.  I don’t have insurance, but I have resources I can still utilize.  I have no money, but I have love and support.  I’m going through a divorce, but at least it’s not a nasty one and I’m so much happier without him. 

Everything happens for a reason and we go through what we go through so that we can be who we are meant to be.  Not everything makes sense when it happens, but when you start paying attention to the bigger picture everything falls into place just as it should.  I used to ask all the time why I had to be sick.  Why not me?  If I focus on every aspect of my illness and what it does to me then it feels like a curse, but if I focus on my entire life as a whole then I’m able to see how my illness has molded me into the person I’m supposed to be.  I wouldn’t be as strong or compassionate as I am if I wasn’t sick.  I love who I am as a person and I wouldn’t change it if I could.  I don’t like being sick, but there are worse things so I’m just going to continue to live my life the best way I know how.

I hope everyone is having an awesome day.  Don’t forget to be brilliant!