I can honestly say that I’m happy and I love myself, but
something is missing. I used to be the
type of person that fell in love fast…too fast.
It was never true love of course.
It was a cover up for the love that I never felt for myself. It was easier to say that I loved someone
else than it was to love myself. I didn’t
realize that it was impossible for me to truly love someone else without first
loving myself.
So here I am now…I love who I am and what I stand for. I’m confident and very thankful for the life
I’ve been given, but still something is missing. I can’t trust anyone, especially a man
because I’m afraid that they will make me lose who I am again. I’m in this mindset of “I’m going to get you,
before you get me”. I like not being as
emotional and I’m glad that feeling of needing a man is gone, but I wonder if I
will ever be able to settle down again.
I guess only time will tell.
Maybe when the right man comes along I will know. At that moment when he hugs me and kisses me
I will feel it and know that it’s the one thing I’ve been missing. Until then I’m just going to take care of me,
because I’ve spent way too much time focusing on the happiness of others
instead of my own. It’s time for me to
be happy and if I have to piss off a lot of people to do that then so be it.
I hope everyone has an awesome day! Be brilliant!
