It’s one of those days again. I thought I was doing good, but I’ve been hit by another flare. My mouth, teeth, throat and left ear hurts. I can’t see right out of my left eye and I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck and dragged a few 100 feet. Other than that I guess I’m doing just fine!
Did I mention that I’m extremely cranky? I wish I could just go sleep until this passes. I’m so tired. I’m tired of being sick and I’m just physically and emotionally tired. This illness is so unpredictable. I’ll wake up absolutely fine and an hour or two later I may be in excruciating pain. It’s so frustrating!
I’ve said it before and even during flares I am still thankful I have Fibromyalgia. I just have a feeling that I would be a selfish bitch if I wasn’t sick. My illness has taught me a lot about compassion for other people and what they’re going through. It’s taught me not to make a big deal over little problems and it’s taught me that I am a strong person even when I don’t feel like I am.
Days like today I may say that I hate this shit and that I can’t take being sick anymore, but I know that days like this will pass. I’m just going to try to rest and relax today and maybe tomorrow will be the day that I hoped for today.
