I’m having one of those days again today. I just can’t seem to get in the mood to write. I have so much going on and I feel like things are rapidly getting out of control. I know I just need to slow down and take things one step at a time, but I still feel overwhelmed. I’ll get over it eventually. My only choice is to keep on keeping on so that’s what I’m going to do.
My life is a very stressful one…chronic illnesses create tons of stress in every area of your life. When I met my husband I had pain in my legs and sleeping issues, but it wasn’t anything that really stood out or affected my life. Now I’m single with 2 chronic illnesses that stay out of control most of the time and it makes dating very awkward. I feel like I might as well have 10 kids with 10 different baby daddies.
When I’m talking to someone I make sure they know from the very beginning that I’m sick, because I don’t want to get attached and then they run like hell when they find out. Some guys have told me that they don’t care and they can handle it…they’re gone now. The ones that stick around are usually the ones who want a booty call every now and then and I’m just not down. Sick chicks do not make good booty calls. I don’t care how you look at it…it is just a set-up for a very awkward situation.
My energy is limited and sometimes I have enough to live and that’s it. Sex used to be important to me, but my priorities and perspectives have changed immensely over the last couple of years. I need someone in my life that I can lean on when I don’t have the energy to keep going…I don’t need someone who wants to hang out for an hour and then I don’t see them for months. I’m worth more than that.
I’ve rambled on enough. I’ll leave ya’ll with a song that I like…It’s dedicated to all the guys who just want booty. Have an awesome day and don’t forget to be brilliant.
