I’m not a very social person. It’ not that I don’t want to be, but I find it hard to be social. I don’t have much confidence these days so it’s hard for me to just reach out to people. I’m always afraid that I’m going to say something stupid, get tongue-tied or start stuttering. Online I’m afraid that I will misspell something or just flat out not make sense.
I’ve always been overly concerned about how I say or do things, but over the past couple of years as my Fibromyalgia flares have increased it has gotten so much worse. It takes me 30 minutes just to leave someone a comment on Facebook or Myspace because first I have to think of what to say and then I have to find the right way to say it and then I have to read it 50 times to make sure that it sounds okay and that there aren’t any typos. Is this a normal Fibro thing or am I really losing my mind?
I get so frustrated because I see how everyone else communicates on social networks and forums and I want to be like those people but I just can’t do it. I have to find a way to overcome it because it’s becoming a huge issue with my writing career, which is barely hanging on by thread.
I hope something gives before it drives me crazy. Any and all advice will be greatly appreciated.
